I’ve been a little all over the place lately – a little mad, a little sad, a little happy, and very confused about life in general. All the bad stuff coming came with questions like, “What did I do to deserve this?”, while the good stuff was followed with questions too. These questions, though, might be the worse of the two types. These were along the lines of, “Why would I deserve these blessings? I have done nothing to deserve anything this good. Something bad will happen soon”.
All in all, I’ve been taking life way too much for granted.
Tonight, it truly felt like there was just good things bursting out of every little crack in the sidewalk. Not to brag, but it really felt like I was killing it tonight. It was an evening filled with homemade doughnuts, giggles, and a long walk chasing the sunset. Most of all, it was a night that I felt like life was giving me a solid chance again, and it’s nice to feel like that again.
So, curled up under way too many blankets for this time of year with a broken AC, I opened up my old prayer journals. Pages on pages of prayers about both little and big things, and almost all of them were answered beyond my ability to comprehend at the time. One page was dedicated to my “Thank-you’s” to the Lord, so I’m going to start that one up again, because there is more to be thankful for than I have been realizing lately.
Lord, thank you, Thank you for cotton-candy sunsets and fireflies. Thank you for acoustic music, for frozen custard and granola, and dogs that are way too excited for their own good. Thank you for mums and for fish. Thank you for writing, for stars, and for people that are willing to be your life no matter what happens. Thank you for this world, God. And most of all, thank you for loving us even when you knew we would come nowhere close to loving you back in the way you deserve.
ps – I’m leaving for camp Saturday and would love some snail mail if anyone wants to say hi:)
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