To the Fighters

Dear overwhelmed and unfulfilled,

Today, I’m writing an open letter to the fighters, to the people struggling to figure out how to balance their crazy lives, to the overwhelmed souls. I know what it’s like, just in the past few weeks I’ve talked to more people who feel like life is drowning them then you’d ever believe. And it’s not the ones that we expect to be drowning in this worry-filled sea we’re floating in. Lately, I’ve been feeling a little bit like life is drowning me too. So much keeps happening and I simply can’t control it.
I’m overwhelmed.
I’m flawed.
And here’s my (debatably) biggest flaw, I turn to others when times get hard. Instead of turning to the forever-stable Lord of all, I turn to the occasionally-stable human. I depend on others way too much but am far too stubborn to admit it. I don’t know how else to say this other than that people can be stupid. We’re all self-centered creatures who are selfish at best. We are inadequate of fulfilling each other. No matter how hard you try, everything that you are will never be enough to forever satisfy another person. It’s horrible and it’s life. I’ve grown up watching divorce after divorce, heartbreak after heartbreak in my family. I’ve watched family members get completely disowned and others just suddenly drop out of each other’s lives. And I’ve seen the results of these heartbreaks. Dear overwhelmed and unfulfilled, here’s the thing, all of it stems from people thinking that one person is all they need to be fulfilled. That one person can give you everything you could ever want, all the reassurance and compassion and love, and no human can do that. Bottom line, we were never created to be full on this earth alone. No earthly pleasure can fulfill us. In Matthew 5 it says that,
“In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.Do not think that I have come to abolish the Law or the Prophets; I have not come to abolish them but to fulfill them.”
Dear overwhelmed and unfulfilled, I think that I’ve written this before but we were built with holes that can only be completely and forever filled with the Lord-nothing else can forever satisfy us.
And still, I constantly find myself trying to fill myself up on other people.
It’s easy to become overwhelmed when there’s no stability, no anchor in our lives. When everything is going wrong, you can find yourself completely caught up in the current of life, constantly pulling you under and making you struggle for breath. When everything is so busy, it’s so easy to let yourself get knocked off course but keep heart. Call to the Lord. He gives us this amazing hope of a future to hold onto and that’s more that we could even ask for. Hang onto that hope.
Dear overwhelmed and unfulfilled, you’re so not alone.
Nothing is going to fulfill you but Him, so look to the Lord. There’s a Josh Wilson song that has the lyrics, “I’ve fallen in love with my doubts instead of you”. And that’s what I find myself doing, falling for everything pulling me away from the Lord. So stop pulling away and let him draw you near. He can fulfill you more than anyone//thing on earth ever will.
with love,

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